I have started a little series of posts Jordan Pt. 1 and Jordan Pt. 2 . This being Pt 4.
They asked us to consider letting Jordan
live with them, so that he could attend the little country school
they live near. Jordan was beyond excited about this prospect,
most of kids he attends youth group would be the kids he
would be going to school with. It really was an emotional
night, with a lot of heartfelt conversation and some tears.
Some of my thoughts went in the direction
that my son is 15 years old, he has but 3 years until he turns
18, if I messed this decision up I could very well set him on a
disastrous path. I knew I couldn't let that happen it was my job,
to not let that happen. We all know as mothers, our children
are always our babies. After speaking to different family
members and talking with Jordan, my mind was made up.
I would not be selfish about this, I needed
to help give my son what he needed. It helped tremendously
that in my heart I knew from the start that it was just the
right thing to do. I feel that God brought us all together
on the same path for some really meaningful reasons.
We didn't give our son away, we extended our family.
It's been a really good change for so many
reasons. We are closer as a family, we spend much more
time focusing on our relationships as a family. The most important
thing is I have my son back. He is happy, he is focusing on his
education, he is excited about school again. He's convinced his
Jesus tended to him..and as a mother that makes me so happy.
I know Jordan will go far places in his life, and he will walk that
journey knowing his mother and most importantly God has his
As for our Pastor and his wife I could never
repay what they are doing for our family. From the bottom of my heart
I appreciate them, and I love them. Just when you think of all the bullies
in the world that feel so bad about themselves they have to spread their
hate and pain to others, you will find these amazing people really do still
exist. I don't know if Jordan will release his pain from being bullied to the
point of wanting to give up everything that meant the most to him. I am
not sure if he will speak of those experiences, maybe it will happen at just
the right moment and it will help someone else..I just dont know. As a mom
part of me wants to know so I can be angry at something specific, but
another part of me can't think of a reason in the world someone would
want to hurt my son. So, I choose not to push him about it, if he wants to
talk about it he knows I'm always here.
I will be soaking up as much information about homeschooling
high school children as possible. When it comes time for my other boys to
attend high school I won't be sending them back to a place that clearly
hasn't found the answers to combat the bully situation. I'm not saying I know
what those answers should be, but meanwhile it's affecting our children in
negative ways, those affects could last through their whole lives. We need to listen
to what our kids say, and listen harder to what they don't say.
I wish you all a good Monday, I invite your advice about
home schooling, and your thoughts about how are we to cope with the bullying
situation that seems to get worse every year....God Bless and keep each one
of you always.....